Dear Mariana
Happy Birthday
Poems I wrote for you, when thinking of you or those turned out to be somehow linked to you, because they make me feel some kind of way, just like you, even when written some time ago. I like to think that we were destined to meet someday, thanks to them. I'm sorry if they're somehow cringy but what can I say, since me myself, is a cringy mess.
Summer
hot
sultrily
It's hard to breathe
when you
hold me in your arms and look outside the window
saying
"look, the very first snow"
but me?
I feel only summer
Winter
You say
I miss the Spring
It's cold, and gloomy
The snow is falling everyday
But me?
I hold you in my arms
lightening up the candle
looking into the fireplace
I miss you
already
At night
Tommorow I will go out after midnight
Or even
after one at night
And I will look up to the stars
Thinking
(you could join me)
Honestly
Those stars
look like they are there just for you
The road
I think,
is not only for walking
can also
lay down
look up to the sky
maybe
kiss
you
Wishes
You are my,
coffee
You are sweet like,
toffee
I wish to take a nap
on top of your lap
and see you smile
even for a while
I wish I could say
"Mariana"
and hear you say
"I'm here"
and you would really
be very near
Yearning
It's been a year of longing for you
There's no more fright
Feels like
you were right
Sunshine
The Sun is out but
you Shine brighter
Fingertips
Fingers grazing my lips
does anyone has any tips
how to keep my heart
at bay
Cat
Can't stop looking
at you
Love you Forever
Lonely I am at times,
Very much so, but
You are here
Forever, I will be grateful
Mariana
Mariana feels like the Sun's morning rise
and the clearest night skies
the smile on my face, a longing gaze
a good advice
and
everything nice
I made you a playlist of songs that remind me of you, or that I think you'd like or just the ones I like and hope you'd like too. Some of them may not be that happy, but I hope you don't mind that. There's quite a lot of them, the first one I added the first time I tried to make this for you and then... added a new one everyday after I've listened to it. So I guess you can see my daily moods in them. I hope you can enjoy it.
Dear Mariana
I thought it would be easy, to put my emotions into words I'd like to share with you but to be honest, it's really not and at times like those I really wish you could be next to me and that I could just hug you and give you all of my love that way. To be even more honest, everything would be a bit easier if we could meet. That thought, of seeing you one day is giving me a lot of energy to keep on going, and I want to thank you for being my strength at the hardest times. It has been a while now, since we have known each other and lots of things have changed, I like to think we've learned a lot about each other, and also figured out a couple of things, but even though stuff has changed I still think of you the same, for the most parts, as I did the first time we talked. I think I told you I was intimidated by you back then? The truth is that I really was, but just because you seemed so sweet and cool and... out of reach. I wished to be your friend very much, just looking how you interacted with others brought a smile to my face and now that you're my friend, I still sometimes find it hard to believe how lovely and genuine in your kindness you are. I'm so thankful for your care and love and every word, even if that word wasn't what I wanted to hear but was what I needed to hear, I'm thankful for you existing every day and showing me that even if it's hard there's always the possibility of getting better. I'm the most thankful for letting me get close to you and for letting me love you and care for you and for sharing memories and stories with me. I'm thankful for you listening to mine and putting me in the right place when I got out of hand at time, I'm thankful for you being the rational voice in my head that made me rethink and change myself. I don't know if you're aware of how much good you've done for me just by being my friend and trusting me. I hope that we can still be there for each other, even if times will change, even if we are growing and will grown apart I hope that you will always know I'm here for you and I'm ready to support you in the littlest things. There's so much to you I'd like to see bloom, and I ask you to let me experience that. Please be proud of yourself, you've helped me so much and you showed me things I long forgot and I tend to forget still.
You told me I'm a strong person, but I'm nothing compared to you. To live a life happily, even if things don't go well sometimes, to not fall into a slumber when things don't go well sometimes, to pick yourself up even if things do get hard at times and to support and love others like you do, it's really not that easy but you do it and you do it well. I've seen you being down a few times, but you always get up and for that I admire you very much, it gives me hope to see you doing your best and I wish for you that all of your hard work will pay off soon, doubled and for long.
Are we now on the part of the wishes finally?
There's so much I wish for you and everyday I see you wish for something too I wish for it even more, because I know how much you deserve it.
I wish for your dreams to come true, no matter how big, small, old or recent they are. The dreams you have for yourself, and your family and friends, so that all of them and you can be happy.
I wish for you to always keep on dreaming too because as long as you are able to wish that long you're able to make them happen.
I wish for you to always have the strength to be as lovely as you are because surely it takes up lots of energy to be a wonderful person such as you.
Therefore, I wish for you to always have the strength to get up when things get a bit hard. I know it does happen sometimes, but what I know also is that you can manage to overcome them, even if it takes a bit of time.
I wish for you to be always able to do things you love, even if they don't seem big. For you to find the joy in creating and discovering no matter what others think of it.
But most of all I wish for you to find the path you want to walk on, I've seen your improvement in things and I've seen what you're capable of and I'm sure it is not all, there's so much more to you I don't know, and so much more that you may not know yet too. So for that I wish. that you can keep on doing better, improving in your own pace and way until you're the happiest with yourself, not until everyone else is. I truly can't wait to see who you turn to be, if you're already a person I admire and cherish so much, such a talented person, a person who makes me smile effortlessly. You're already someone amazing, but I hope I can still be by your side to be able to see how much greater you can become.
I wish for love, kindness, freedom and happiness for you because that's what you deserve the most. To be able to be who you want to be and be cherished by others for that.
I'm sure there are things that are just waiting for you, places and people to see and meet, I wish you can soon reach them and enhance their days like you do with mine. You're my Sunshine after all, and I thank you for brightening my life.
Happy Birthday, I love you with all of my heart.
Ps. I really want to hug you
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